Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Where have I gone to?

Hello there, for those who have forgotten, my name is Kevin and I blog... LOL!!

Been a long time since I've done one of these and there are many reasons why, but the main one is really I've had nothing positive to say/report. I have completely stalled out and backed up just a little, luckily just a little!!

I am tired of the program we have been doing. While it works, it is extremely restrictive and VERY expensive, so we stopped getting the supplements a while back and I have come to the realization that I have begun to tune them out. I want to get exercising again and that program isn't designed for that. I need extra carbs to work out and If I have extra carbs I am instantly "cheating", which I do anyways because I am on a program and I am not unlike 99% of people who are on programs I think.

I have come to the realization that I need to do this for myself on my own. I can no longer rely on someone else to do it for me and let's be honest, all the programs out there are nothing but a crutch; something to blame when you don't succeed. Now I know those programs work for many people, but if you don't have the personal fortitude to take control and do it yourself, then when that program ends, and you don't have that crutch anymore, back you go.

I like food, I will admit that. I love to cook!!! I don't see anything wrong with that. I have already gotten to the point where I don't gorge myself anymore. I measure almost everything I eat now, and carb count like a pro because of my insulin pump program. I need to get better about junk food, I know that, but that is a by-product of being on a restrictive program and feeling put-out.

Pam & I played softball together last night and it was awesome. Tonight we are doing something else, maybe pull the bikes out and go for a family ride? I hope so, either way I am making a lovely pasta dinner and then continuing my active streak. I feel 100x better than I have in years and I'm not going back, I'm going further until the journey is complete... hopefully in about 60-years from now. ;)